As you know, today is new years eve. In this day, people usually go to their friends or their family. But me… I’m just sitting in my room (actually not in My room, in my sisters room, cause in my room isn’t internet connection) and watching Supernatural(now I’m watching the beginning of the 9th season and I’m just: OMG. Sam, don’t die, or I will kill you!). Yes… I think I’m a little bit anti-social, but I’m happy with it. I mean, I’m sure it’s good, being with your friends and doing some crazy things, but I’m okay with my anti-social-part. Because (thanks for God) it’s just a part of me. I have moments, when my only wish is just being alone, and I have moments when I’m with my friends, and I’m happy, crazy(more and less, I’m not a party-king type). But today, I feel myself better, because I’m alone. I don’t have a lot a friends, and I haven’t got a bestie, but I’m fine. Sometimes my parents think I’m weird(they don’t say, just how they look at me…), weird, because my big sister is with her boyfriend, my little brother is with his best friend, and my little sister too. And than they asked me, what are my plans for new years eve. My answer was: Hm, I don’t know. I will watch Supernatural, I will hear Linkin Park, and I will eat and drink what I find. They just looked at me, than just for a little moment, they were sad. I saw the sadness in their eyes, because of me, and I became so sad, because of this. I’m lonely, a little bit, but I’m happy with it. But I can’t tell this to my parents, because they could’nt understand me. I know. Just I can understand myself, that’s why I’m lonely sometimes. And yes, maybe that’s why I love TV characters more, than real people. Because they are Tv characters, and not real, and when sonething is not real, than it can be perfect.(please don’t misunderstand me, I’m not saying, that people are jerks, and not perfect and that’s a so big problem…actually…I’m saying that, and I mean it seriously) I’m not perfect too, and I know, but I don’t care. And yes, I love Tv characters more, than real people, maybe that will be my end.(Okaay, I know, I’m just 13, I shouldn’t thinking about my end, but that’s important to me. And maybe that’s just a sad teenager-problem, but I don’t care. Now, I think Tv characters are better, but everybody thinks that in my age…right?!
~And guys, who read this, don’t forget; always keep fighting!~